I’m not quite sure what the something else is at this point in time but…its true – I quit my job today. Technically, it was yesterday, but I was too caught up in my overwhelming joy to actually sit down and write a blog entry…my first blog entry. It was an idea I came up with as I was making a mental checklist of all the things I wanted to do now that I put myself in such a predicament as this, the loss of a job. Furthermore, the loss of a job – by choice! I was making perfectly good money, at a global ad agency full of media, good people and benefits; and I quit.
My decision was no surprise to me as I knew this wasn’t the job for me by about lunch time on day 1; I made up my mind the minute the lady training me, we’ll call her Tonie, told me the phone was essentially my bosom buddy and that I was expected to watch upwards of 18 lines in 6 different offices from 8 -5 every day, but as she liked to put it, “I get here at about 6:30 every morning and rarely leave before 6 at night…”
“YeahNo - this isn’t happening. We’ll see how long this lasts…” I thought.
I’ve never considered myself to be a quitter, I just know what I want out of life-or sometimes I don’t-but I do know exactly what I don’t want.
Anyhoo I agonizingly debated & hypothesized for months. I went back and forth trying to convince myself that times are really tough, and the economy is really shitty and that I should just stick it out. After all, the chances for growth were unlimited! So many people sat in my seat before me and are now practically running the company – right?! This is so exciting. Or at least it could be. If I wanted to run a humongously rich and popular - super cliché yet cool, cruel and unusual corporate world full of rules, hypocrisy, undermining, and again….wealth. But that’s not I want. It's true - after being laid off for 15 months, all the while pursuing endeavors I knew nothing about, there were an approximate five minutes that made me think I might want to be part of the wealth that coincides with corporate America. When I found myself a part of it, I recognized exactly why I’ve tried to keep my distance from it all these years of my own free thinking. I want to work for me. I want to support me, create for me, and build for me. I want to get big enough where I need to apply my own rules, but do it my way. It’s every entrepreneur’s dream – and I am no exception. I am an entrepreneur…..
And I’ve got an idea.
So I quit!
I have a lot of exciting things in store but I have a lot of work and learning in front of me. I’m intimidated that I may forget how to proceed. That I may fall off track. That I won’t balance my time efficiently and that I will trail off from my goal. These are the reaons I have decided to write about my experience. My boyfriend has started an insurance agency and lost 83 pounds this year in 2010. The agency was pie (making money is another story), but the weight loss took many things – one of them being accountability. So that is what I’m doing, I’m simply making myself accountable. If I write down what my goals are, my actions toward meeting those goals, and progress seen along the way perhaps, when the going gets tough, or the tough fall off the trail, I’ll be more likely to remember the excitement of the beginning, of these moments and chase away the fear and fading imagination.
